Formspring...

okay so i'm not sure how i feel about this just yet but i thought it would be just something interesting perhaps? who knows anyway i sort of like the idea of questions being completely anonymous then you can really see what people wonder about you... but its sort of scary at the same time because what if i get statements or questions like "you suck!" lol that's not even a question! anyway i just threw it in the side bar sooo hopefully it's some what cool and i'll get to keep it around... anywho looks like i'm gonna have to start getting ready for the dayy... kbye

New Under Bar

so i got this new underbar below the page not sure if you guys will like it but its something new perhaps redundant but hey its flashy =p oh and it gives access to my youtube videos so that's always a plus =] check it out! i hope you like it!

end of spring break...

having things that you love is always good for when you're bored... this spring break has come and gone so fast... i don't feel like i've done anything but at the same time i feel like i've done lots of things... i don't know what it is... playing the guitar... being ambitious and seeing what other things i can accomplish... i feel like when this break is over reality will set in... pressures and stresses of school... standardized exams... applications to grad school... pressures to find a job... just life hitting me fast... i wish i had a snickers lol... tomorrow morning i'm having an early breakfast i guess you could say with my grandma we're going to eat at some japanese place so i think it should be exciting... she's always a blast to hang out with....

i'm excited to go back to dekalb man i feel like i've been calling that my home although i wouldn't consider it my home... i guess what i'm trying to get at is that i don't feel like the home i lived in for over 11 years feels like home anymore... i feel like i need to move on get out of here go somewhere new i'm sure i've mentioned something about this but i can't help it since it's always on my mind...

when i get back i'll have more videos to post so that should be exciting since all the editing that i can do is on my desktop since its bomb ass lol anywho i got an early day tommorrow so i guess this is all for now...

till then...beReflectful...

Pre-Spring Break Thinking

with spring break just around the corner it looks like i'm going to have lots to do... no i'm not going to Miami to party... or a cruise or anything like that... i'm going to be lame and not go anywhere lol... crazy to think that this is going to be my last spring break ever of my undergraduate career... there is just so much to do these days i need breaks to catch up or to just stay productive and keep pace with my life...

without even having my spring break start yet... my dad and i picked up 48 boxes of laminate flooring last week because i guess my mom decided that she would redo the entire upstairs... now i know that she's not going to hire anyone so that leaves me and my dad to do the job... granted she didn't ask me yet but i'm just assuming lol... but then with my dad being at work all day i'm probably going to be the one doing the majority of the work so well here goes nothing! i'll see if i can post pictures of my progress...

i just took a practice GMAT exam from Kaplan and well i guess i wasn't surprised or saddened about my score its exactly what i thought i would get while this being a somewhat good thing i also realize that well i'm going to have to bring that score up so test prep books and studying here i come! .... -_- exciting i know... well i'll have to make the best of it right? anywho enough future talk...

in the upcoming weeks i hopefully plan to get more covers out i've got some in the works and some scheduled with other people so that should be super fun i'm really excited so hopefully they all work out! i'd spoil you with the song list but well i wont lol...

now for some life talk... man alot has happened to me since i've actively updated on this blog... physically, emotionally, spiritually? (perhaps i haven't decided yet) each day i'm getting a good grasp of what i want out of life but then each day i feel as if more and more responsibility is being put on me... i guess that's what i get for growing up... which is to be expected but you really never realize the magnitude of whats hitting you till well... it actually hits you... so i find myself thinking all the time about everything i have to constantly remind myself to take it a day at a time with everything changing around me... sisters growing up moving out... my life is evolving... my family is evolving... i'm...(drum roll please) growing up!... kind of... i'm barley managing handling myself don't get me wrong its exciting but it is also a lot of work... hopefully it will all be worth it in the end... hopefully... we just gotta hope for the best but expect the worse...

till next time...beYou...

Taylor Swift - You Belong With Me (Cover)

i've liked this song for a long time now and i think this is one of the first songs that i learned from Taylor Swift its super fun to play and well the song's about love from afar... my favorite kind! lol nevertheless i hope you like it!



till then...beMusical...

Taylor Swift - I'd Lie (Cover)

so i've decided that i was going to record more covers of me playing the songs that i like and well i came across this song by having a friend of mine mention it to me her birthday was coming up so what better excuse to make a video haha just a nice thing to do anyway here you go i hope you like it =]



till then...beMusical...

Taylor Swift - Monologue Song (Cover)

so me and my sister Brittney! decided that she wanted to cover one of Taylor Swifts songs that she sang on SNL called monologue song! hope you like it!



till then...beMusical...

deciding still if i should open up my blog again...

suddenly i'm feeling an inclination to write again... i used to do it all the time... it was fun... therapeutic... i guess i'll need a couple of days to think about it...

so lately whats been going on in my life?
i'm graduating in may... trying to get into grad school... thinking about the GMATs... and well that along with many other things... a time like this in my life seems to be a double edge sword... at one end its so scary but at the other end i'm so ready to begin my life... but there are so many things to do... is this how life will always be? will i ever get the chance or time to just soak it in? because if its not the school or the standardized tests and the more school that's filling up my time and sorta stressing me out what will it be after that? applying for work? stresses at the job? then not to mention factoring in relationships, family, everything else... where will i have time to just sit and be happy... will i ever be happy? i was talking with one of my classmates after a "mock interview" and he was talking to me about the "paradox of choice" and how that in itself makes the world unhappy. how choices make us unhappy... for example of 10 products if you had to choose 1 product and you're happy with it you still won't be as happy as you could have been since you won't know how the other 9 products performed... my friend also talked about how back in the day there was just one kind of jeans... the story goes a man walks into a jeans store and asks for a pair of jeans and asks the lady "hey can i get some jeans" and she responds with "what kind of cut?" and the man replies back with "umm what kinds are there" and then she replies with so many different cuts... long cut, short cut, low cut waist, boot cut, straight cut, stretch cut... he interrupts her asking "isn't there just a normal cut?" she replies with "whats a normal cut?" so now in the process of selecting a pair of jeans he has to learn what kind of cut all the different kinds of jeans are... he finally makes it out of the store selecting one but is unhappy at all the time that he wasted... i still haven't come up with an opinion on this matter its still brewing in my head amongst the other things that i think about...

i recently purchased an electric violin online and well just thought that i could perhaps learn to play again i guess this time around with my parents not nagging me to practice it might be different i guess we'll just have to see... hopefully it isn't a waste of money haha i'll def post of videos when i get good enough for youtube lol

alright well i have a midterm today to study for and i really should get crackin at that so well...

till then...beRecapturing...

short and sweet just like her...

...a picture of you in my wallet...
...behind it a small piece of paper...
...it says "I <3 You!" dated 06-13-07...
...i call out to you...
...maybe you'll hear me...
...maybe you're trying to forget...
...i won't forget...
...do you miss me...

Save 9 Crimes Tonight Mashup

my roommate and i decided to do a mashup (or at least attempt to mashup)
9 crimes by Damien Rice and Save Tonight by Eagle Eye Cherry

hope you like it! =p



till then...beMusical...

"CLEAR!"

i wonder whats in store for me in the future... i wonder if i'll be happy... if i'll be with the girl of my dreams... i wonder how different or the same my life will be... my state of mind... am i easily forgotten... or does the thought of me bring back so much pain... why we put ourselves in this situation i don't know... seeing you... hearing your voice... it sends a rush of energy through my body... as if all this time i've been lying on a hospital operating table... and seeing you... or hearing your voice... talking to you... is each time the doctor says "CLEAR" then a jolt of life rushes through my body... cuz when i'm in those moments i feel so alive... so filled with emotion... so complete... but then as quickly as it comes it goes without any explanation... everything blacks out... and i'm alone again... i'm struggling... fighting in and out of consciousness... maybe eventually you'll be there... finally to hold my hand... to hold it tight... letting me know everything will be okay... and as mysteriously as it ended... it will have begun again... but with any great tragedy we learn... to avoid such things... i'll never stop hoping... wishing... keeping you in my heart... waiting for the spark of love to bring us back to life... please don't loose hope on me... on us... cuz i still haven't... i'm not expecting us to get back together so soon... i just miss my best friend...

random throught process....

school, work, papers, homework, is all i do now... sometimes i wonder what's going on in you're world... i remember a time where i could not imagine you not in my world... but now those thoughts seem to become closer and closer to reality... i wonder what neat things you encounter each day... i wonder if on your bad or stressful day that you remember to maybe take a hot bath to relax... i wonder if you still think about me... if you think about us... if there could ever be an us... i hope you haven't given up... cuz i haven't... unless you already have then i'm sure you have for good reasons... i just hope you make sure to not keep me in the dark... i remember once you told me about someone you once loved... how you told me that he was expecting to get back together with you... but you still help him with his papers n such... i did not think much of it then... we were in love... and falling fast... was he waiting for you like i am now... i have no idea... is the same fate waiting for me as what happened to him... i can't say... although you did tell me you would help me look over my papers or if i had to revise a resume... i wonder what he must have felt... seeing you with me... maybe its different but maybe its not... maybe he couldn't take it anymore and had to find someone else... but see that's were i'm different... something as special as what we had is worth waiting for... its worth this temporary discomfort... maybe i have no idea what i'm talking about... but i can't blame myself... i'm left with nothing... just pictures from the past... calendars... photo albums.... framed pictures... crafts... all sitting in the exact same place six months ago... i don't know or think i'll ever be able to move them from their place... if i would ever move them from where they are now i'd have to lock them away... and only to be opened under the condition that it won't hurt me when i open it... but for now there they are... on my wall... my window sill... contact lens w/solution still in the bathroom next to your headband for when you wash your hair... its not that i'm trying to be creepy... i just don't feel the need to move them... for if i move them i fear that i may loose track of what i'm fighting for... the saying "a picture is worth a thousand words" has never been more true... with all the pictures that are still around having each their own place i remember the memories and it makes me happy... it keeps me going... on my way to class... coming back... i guess i'm still hoping to be able to recapture that again... i just hope that maybe you might feel the same way too sometimes... loving you is the best thing that i have ever done... i just didn't realize that till it was too late... i just hope its not too late for us...

recapturing childhood memories...

bought a toy today... [lets just let the picture do all the talking....]
=] bought it at walmart! my roommates also bought their own respective firearm... lets just say the war has only begun!

never stop playing...

I'm Only Me When I'm With You...

waking up and getting ready to this song... i've been playing it a lot lately.... check it out!



Lyrics:
Friday night beneath the stars
In the field behind your yard
You and I are paintin' pictures in the sky
And sometimes we don't say a thing
Just listen to the crickets sing
Everything I need is right here by my side
And I know everything about you
I don't wanna live without you

[Chorus]
I'm only up when you're not down
Don't wanna fly if you're still on the ground
It's like no matter what I do
Well you drive me crazy half the time
The other half I'm only trying to let you know
That what I feel is true
And I'm only me when I'm with you

Just a small town boy and girl
Livin' in a crazy world
Tryin' to figure out what is and isn't true
And I don't try to hide my tears
My secrets or my deepest fears
Through it all nobody gets me like you do
And you know everything about me
You say that you can't live without me

[Chorus]

When I'm with anybody else, it's so hard to be myself
Only you can tell

[Chorus]

And I'm only me
Who I wanna be
Well, I'm only me when I'm with you
With you
Uh-huh
Yeah