important dates.....

so was hanging out in my sisters room and well she has a white board written on there were different friends of hers saying so and so "was here!" and in the corner she had an important dates section well i thought it was cute and decided to share... i'll just let the picture do the talking xD
till then...beCute...

My Week...

Monday...

the first day of school was quite a ride... being back in class... whispering to the person next to me... i see a lot of familiar faces i think one of my goals this semester is to make new friends... before i always would just go to class and then head straight home not making any effort to making new friends in class... my Monday starts at 8am then ends at 10am then my night class from 6-9pm... i got a text from some close friends that told me that they were in town well in the city not really in town (dekalb) so i drove to Chicago to meet up with them by the lake/field museum... they hopped into my car then i took them out to this nice Indian buffet in Chicago it was called (okay don't laugh) "gaylord" for having such a weird name the food was super awesome! i will def be returning there in the future with other guests or if i ever find myself in the city again... i would have wanted to show them more but with their concert starting at 5pm and my class starting at 6 we called it quits and went our separate ways at around 3 but not before taking awesome pictures by the lake... well the spot where you have the best view of Chicago...

Tuesday...

woke up to some homemade breakfast that my housemate made me... Tuesday wasn't nearly as exciting and hectic as Monday but it was more first days of classes and seeing other people that i knew from the summer only i was their TA but they were my age... next thing i know i'm saving seats for them in class... bought all my books today... at this point i think to myself that this semester isnt going to be so bad... went home did some house cleaning and called it a day...

Wednesday...

again woke up to some homemade breakfast (biscuits and gravy with hash browns and sausage) it was awesome... i scarfed it down and got a ride to my 8am class cuz well it was raining... i usually like the rain but i ONLY don't like the rain when i have to walk to class... school was put into first gear by Wednesday... i was taking notes on my hp mini and talks of quizzes and tests were floating in the air... i didn't mind because alot of the things we were talking anyway i took great interest in...

Thursday...

oh thirsty Thursday... i didn't drink... lol but ended up picking up a friend from the train station... it was nice of her to drop by having flown all the way from china... we then just hung out at my lil's place and talked till about 12:30 at that time i had to start heading home because my 8am was commin fast and well i don't want to start missing class on the first week...

Friday...

went by fast since i end class at 10 and only have my 6-9pm class once a week on Monday so i hung around a bit grabbed lunch with some new found friends from class (i hope that didn't sound so lame lol....) then went home to chill with the family helped a friend out with his brakes but it soon turned into a horrific experience (but that's another blog) then called it a night to prepare for work on the weekend

The Week...

this first week was nice i'm finding myself looking at the school year with a different mentality... i find myself wanting to go to class... and actually enjoying being in class learning the things that make me and keep me interested... i'm shooting for a 3.0 cumulative this semester that's 3 A's and 2 B's yes its doable... easy... not so much... but like i said before.... i'm up to the challenge....

sorry for the non-blogging i'll try to get something down here every day and if not i'll post something like this up =]

till then...beUpdated...

i know i know....

i know i haven't blogged for a while just so busy with school but i'll def make up for it this weekend...

its all Theories...

My Fall Class List!

COMS 302 - Intro to Organizational Communication Theory
COMS 303 - Intro to Interpersonal Communication Theory
COMS 400 - Rhetorical Theory
COMS 404 - Communication Theory
COMS 459 - History of Broadcasting
COMS 495a - Capstone Project: Senior Thesis (with Dr. Doederlein)

busy? yes... excited? yes! impossible? i think NOT!

till then...beDetermined...

streaming consciousness...

its hot... school's about to start... i wonder if it will be filled with new experiences... or will i just be faced with the same thing... i need to get a 6 pack just to say that i've had it before... i hope my classes aren't hard... why do we do the things we do... sometimes things don't make sense... my car needs parts... why am i up this late... not looking forward to working later today... i should probably sleep... why do people over complicate things... is there a simple answer for everything... i feel like we need to simplify our lives... i want to be out of my natural surroundings again... sometimes i feel like i'm running a marathon... but i failed to read the sign of how long it is at the start... i just keep grabbing the water that people give me to keep me going... i don't feel tired... just sometimes confused on why i'm running... i'm not running away from anything... i feel like i'm running towards something... something i can't see or even start to know what it is exactly... perhaps when i get to the finish i'll finally know...

TGIF.... maybe?

work... school... work... school... work... school... my car... work... school... guitar.... work... school.... gotta make that money right... but what for... car parts... computers... school... books... idk... i don't want to feel like i'm going through the motions... when people ask me how my day went i don't want to respond with... same shit different day... so i try to do things that are out of the ordinary every day... even if its just as little as browsing the car care isle to see what new waxes i could buy for my car... i guess life is all about you making each day different from the last... if i ever responded "same shit different day"... that would only mean that its cuz i aloud it to be that way...

till then...beSpontaneous...

got my white shoes!

sooo i got my white shoes that i wanted =] just thought i'd share! this video made me want to get them lol (look at their shoes)
oh and did i mention they were 10 bucks?! lol yay for me!

she was mine...

came across this song on youtube and it reminded me of relationships and how sometimes distance is a huge obstacle to overcome... sometimes i wonder if love can really heal all... or if love can really cloes the gap... or is there some things that love can't mend... because if there's love then things like distance should not be things that can't be overcome... sometimes i wish i could rewind all the way back to where i'm sitting there in this big auditorium where tables are set up like a huge dinner where i would pass her the heart shaped cheesecake... i'd do alot of things differently... but then at the same time i would not want to change a thing that happened... i guess the only thing i'm hoping for is to be able to sit across the table... catch her eye once more... and make sure she gets the heart shaped cheesecake... because little did i know that i would not only be giving her cheese cake but my heart as well... i'm not expecting it back... because i know its in good hands...

[lyrics]
So i hopped on a train three in the afternoon
I don't know when i'm coming back,
but i hope that it's soon
see, i never thought (never thought)
That i'd have to leave your side (your side)

It's only physically
but you know that you will be on my mind
Twenty-four hours at a time
Cause in my eyes, you were mine (you were mine)

[chorus]
No matter where you go, i won't be very far
Cause in my head i'll be right there where you are
Cause love is no distance baby
Love, love is has distance baby
No, not when it comes to you and me

See, she wrote me a letter, said the weather wasn't better
But she says that she was doing fine
"i want to see you face to face", that's what she wrote to me that day
And i knew that it was all a sign
So i wrote back with this song,
promise it won't be too long
Wann make up for all our lost time
Cause in my eyes, you were mine (you were mine)

[chorus]

So i'm going through these boxes, my life's gone off track
It's been three years, she hasn't written back
But in my eyes, she's still mine
And i know it sounds so stupid to be waiting this long
But i'm still in love, and i know i'm not wrong
Cause in my eyes, she was mine

[chorus 2x]

till then...beHopeful...

the first to wish me a happy birthday...

so 3 days before my birthday i get a letter in the mail... from southwest... i guess they know my birthday... i miss flying on a plane... southwest has always been good to me... i guess it's what puts them over the others... and they fly to Missouri =p anyway check it out!

the perfect present...

what do you get someone that's super hard to shop for? gadgets of course! and well i'll just say that i got these as a present =] they came in the mail and i can already see the possibilities of what i can fix! i guess you could say i'm a bit of a handy man and a gadget freak and well these gadgets just totally made my day (birthday =p rather) haha i'm already thinking of the best places to put them in the car on my bag on my keys (well not all on my keys cuz that would make for very heavy keys not to mention bulky lol) but all the gadgets that i have and well the things that need a little fix-it around me will now be saved! now i already own the tool thats pictured all the way to the right and its been SUPER useful with opening packages, bottles, cutting open blister packs (i actually used that tool to open my new tool set lol talk about irony) but now i have a spare in the case if it breaks (which i don't think it will its swiss made! lol) these handy tools look and feel awesome, quality is nice and if you ever see a pack of these anywhere i would recommend you picking one up for yourself it will be totally worth it especially if you're a geek/mr.fixit like me =] what can i say i love them!

Another Day... Just Breathe...

this song makes me feel relaxed... it reminds me of how days are just a small part of our lives and sometimes we just gotta make it through the day... i imagine listening to this song in the car... or in my room with my headphones on... so as to drown out everything around me... just enjoy the calming tones... but what i like most about this song is that we still have another day and we have to remember to breathe... to take in life for that day... this song just popped into my head... i don't know why... but funny that it did on my birthday... i'm not that excited... but then again i didn't get my hopes up... so that's always good right... i still have the whole day left of my birthday... and i bet its just going to be another day... i don't say that in a bad way... just what i'd want...

[Breathe - Telepopmusik]

Departures and Arrivals...

so today i was with my parents at midway airport waiting for our relatives to get in and i guess for some reason we did not have any communication between them... so we just kept circling the arrivals and departures... so trying to make this sound not creepy i started to people watch... just see what people were doing... i noticed alot of couples giving their loved ones kisses and hugs behind their vehicles as they helped them unload their luggage... then when we would circle down toward the arrivals i'd see eager loved ones some with flowers in hand... others looking as if they were trying to find a diamond in the rough... couples running toward each other exploding with happiness... after seeing both it brought back so many memories... so many good memories... i could feel how those people felt... how they did not want to let go... how they were eagerly waiting for the one they loved... while circling through the airport my mom and dad got into a slight argument... it made it quite awkward... but after he dropped my mom off to look for our guests my dad said to "try to not make little things into big problems, it will help you alot in the future" and its something that i've generally lived by but hearing it from him made it more true and he was right... shortly after things were the same again between my parents... because what happened wasn't a big deal and it shouldn't be made into a big deal... love won that fight... and i hope by keeping these things in mind that love will also help me stay slow to anger... and to cause me to be rich in patience... i guess right now i'm just at the arrival terminal... with tulips in hand behind my back... hopefully my princess's flight isn't too delayed...

till then...bePatient... and don't sweat the small stuff =p

time and place...

a scent that catches your nose... a comment that someone says... a place that you've been... or even things you see around you... that bring back a mountain of memories... its as if your memories are rewound in your head then only the most memorable parts are played back... it always makes me smile... but then its quickly followed by a sigh of how things are so different now... i haven't lost hope... and i never will... i know things like this take a long time... i just need to focus on the larger picture... the bigger goals ahead... i believe that there will come a place and time to where everything will just feel right... i'll keep waiting for that time... but for now... baby steps...

"The Lake House"
- "Pick a place. I'll Be There, I Promise"

thinkers...

if you're a thinker like me you'll be constantly be thinking about every and any possible answer to solve the problem that you're in... now this may sound like a strength but could it be possibly be thought of as a weakness... perhaps not dealing with a situation may be the best possible answer to solving the situation... but i guess nature wiring me as a thinker makes me think completely otherwise... why do some people chose to push issues that are clearly lingering... i guess waiting for the dust to settle is a way of looking at it... but if the dust settles completely we sometimes forget what our goal is... or maybe once the dust completely settles we will know what we want or what the answer is because it will be clear... and in front of us... if you don't consider yourself a thinker... you should try it out... there is a world of things you can find out about yourself...

till then...beThoughtful...

a piece of their minds...

i read a couple blogs and subscribe to others and well i always like to share what i read with others because for some reason i get this urge to share that maybe the people that read my blog will also find it touching or moving...

well the first post that i read is a good reminder to keep life simple try not to over think things or make things more complicated than they actually are because most of the time what you're looking for is right in front of your face...

A Sunny Storm : Right in Front of You

the second post that i read gave me the feeling as if i was sitting there breathing with him... its sort of a reminder to only take in the good things in life... and to just release the bad things... because these days people like to bottle up things inside until they explode... lets remember to breathe and just let go of the things that are less important...

All Things Chill > The Art Of Breathing

its nice to remember to see other perspectives on things because if we stick with what one person says or take the advice of just one person i believe we would sell our self short or even perhaps not allow us to experience something that we did not know we could...

till then...beOpen-Minded...

incomplete...

so last June my cousin well not really my cousin but i've known him so long he's practically my cousin played a song that he wrote called incomplete at my house... i almost cried... no i would be lying if i said that i didn't tear up... i've become somewhat drawn to the lyrics of songs and his lyrics just hit me so hard... i could tell that he has felt what i have felt by just hearing those lyrics... you can't write like this without experiencing it first hand... well here it is and its wonderful... check out the lyrics below... its what i've been trying to explain how i feel but its still only the beginning of how i feel... i hope you enjoy it as much as i do...

Lyrics

so when u comin back to me/i've lost so much/and i can't go back to where things used to be/can't u see i've fallen/like a torch without a flame/without u it ain't the same/like these flowers without a vase/oh how i long to see ur pretty face

the day that we first met/how can i forget/how our souls connect/and when i heard ur voice/the angels up above came down to rejoice/like the moon without the stars to shine brightly from afar/like a city without no street/my life without u would be incomplete

chorus: you'll always be/you'll always be the sun in the sky/when my world comes crashin' by/ your're always near/ you'll always be near in my heart/but this distance it just tears me apart

how the time has passed us by/still we try to keep the flame alive/but ur just so far away/gotta connect before we're old and gray/like a field without the rain without u it's causin' pain/like these words without this song/to prove my love for u is oh so strong (chorus)

so when u comin' back to me

till then... bePassionate...

Lights has got a new video!

this is her newest video for her new song "saviour"

i love the lyrics, i love all of the underlying hidden meanings, and i love her style so check it out! i'm sure you'll love it too...
"Saviour" Music Video

i <3 LIGHTS

the day i was born...

so yesterday was my sisters 16th birthday... i remember my 16th birthday... kind of... i had a bunch of my friends over and it was fun... don't remember what we did... i think i just liked being around my friends and family... you know people who cared about you... its getting closer and closer to my 22nd birthday... and well i guess you could say i'm not the least bit excited... is it wrong for me to just hope its goes by like any other day... i don't know... i know what i'll be wishing for... i think i'll pre-wish before my birthday... the only thing that i want for my birthday isn't of any monetary value... you can't make it or find it anywhere... i just want to be surrounded by the people who care about me... i want to have the people that will take enough effort to hang out with me even for one day just because they believe that birthdays are a big deal even tho i don't... no presents... just themselves... perhaps some of my close friends have forgotten... and the last thing that i want is a generic happy birthday text... people who really care will call and people who care the most will be there... perhaps i'm just expecting too much... birthdays are overrated anyway... its just another year... one step closer to cheaper insurance... i don't know why when i was a kid looking forward to my birthday was the most exciting thing ever... but now why do i feel like i could care less if it came at all...

i found love... kind of...

a couple of days ago when i was closing at Michael's, in one of the framing aisles i saw a green basket and inside it was wooden letters that made the word love... now i thought it was interesting... and trust me i did not set this up in any way it was just there out of its place by the rest of the frames... i wasn't expecting to find it there... and i wasn't looking for it... it sort of just caught me by surprise... and it was very ironic... i guess it was a reminder or something... i have no idea... but maybe someone or something's trying to tell me something... so yeah i get it... love will come when i least expect it... it was irony... right in front of my face and i think it could not have been more clear... now i can only hope to find it like this for real... i kind of chuckled to myself when i found it like this... and thought to myself... now if i could only do this in real life haha... well the time will com and when it does it will be amazing...till then...beHopeful...

waking up early...

ok for some reason i woke up at 6am today... weird i know... and ironic cuz i don't have school anymore... well for 2 weeks i mean... why did i wake up so early... i have no idea... songs will randomly pop into my head at random times... and this morning... at 6am... the song "i wanna be with you" by Mandy Moore just popped into my head... does it reflect the way i feel... maybe... or is it just because we saw the movie center stage in the class that i teacher assist in... who knows... perhaps a bit of both... i don't know... now i've been awake for almost 2 hours and thinking if i should just go back to sleep or stick it out for the rest of the day... oh man... also twitter has been acting strange lately and i don't like it lol... hopefully it comes back to its normal functioning self...

oh ya here's the video just in case you wanted to hear the song in my head...

end of summer...

so i'm finally done with classes... just hanging out with friends... no school for 2 weeks then its back to school again but i guess that's good... working every weekend... and for the next week i'm workin close to 40 hours so that should be fun... i guess its money right... oh well... not that excited about turning 22 i mean i guess its just another year... it wet by so fast... makes me want to slow things down so that i can remember them and enjoy the times that were great... but at the same time i don't want to slow down at this point... just because i've heard and i feel like my last year at school will go by super fast... i'm sure i'll find some way to keep myself occupied... if you read this and know me hit me up :) i'm sure we'll find something to do!

why is Kansas City Following me?!

okay so checked my email today and i'll get random people following me on twitter but i mean out of all things i get this...cool but weird... but cool! i guess i'll be up to date now on the new "hip" places in Kansas City lol... yes i just said hip... oh well...

till then...beSurprised...

have a nice day...

at the office... at your apartment... at your house... at your school... in class... in your cubicle... on your bed... your couch... your desk... where ever you are... have a nice day :)

and remember to smile! why? why not?!

XD

planning the future...

well today i looked over my fall schedule and well if i said next semester is gonna be easy i'd be lying... but i'm actually excited to continue and finish my school i guess this year is going to go by fast hopefully... am i going to hate it... probably... but after this its going to be the last year that i live in my apartment... last year to enjoy the down time... before i start my life... its funny how much planning becomes more and more important when we get older... am i scared... sure... but i'm more than ready to tackle the hell out of it...

till then...beStrong...

they call her love...

She is Love and she's all I need...

why do i feel like i need to write...

i don't know... perhaps its my way of dumping things out on "paper"... to where i know that someone out there is reading this and can perhaps relate to me... or can share similar experiences with me... i don't know... why do we always make situations more complicated than they really are... i wish for every complicated situation both parties could just confront each other and tell the other whats on their mind and what causes the awkward/uneasy/not having any idea whats going on feeling... i've always been on to bring up situations like that because i feel like it saves the two people alot of time... it saves time that could potentially be wasting... i say potentially because sometimes all they need is time but you can't no for sure if you don't talk about it... its hard because you see where you want to be... where you want to end up... what would make you happy... but don't know how to get there... i think its because we clutter up our thoughts with many things... i myself am guilty of this but i think i need to start cleaning up the mess and the garbage that has been lingering... then maybe i can start working my way towards what makes me happy... i know i say this now but who knows... i don't even know if whoever reads this actually understands what i'm saying... or if they are just laughing at my reasoning... well take it for what its worth... there are many paths to the finish... i guess i'm just taking the longest path...

edit: oh almost forgot... don't forget to feed my fish they are looking a bit hungry...

its the feeling you get when...

you are waiting for a firework to explode...
you drop something and are watching it before it hits the ground...
you wait to see if someone is guilty or not guilty...
your about to be put in a situation that could be potentially awkward...
you are about to ask someone on a first date...
you are staring at the phone because you wonder if he/she will call you...
you don't know what to do... because either could mess everything up...

ugh... doing nothing is hard... i can't just do nothing... i need something to happen... i need to do something... but why do i feel like that's the wrong thing to do... i hate it when both options have equal valid points... it makes things oh so much easier...

last week...

well its the last week of school then i've got nothing after that for 2 weeks... then fall semester begins on the 24th... i could always fill up that time with giving my baby some well deserved love... just bought her about $400+ worth of new things... i'm sure she'll appreciate it... i'll just have to help her put it all on... oh yeah and this months birthdays... 3 of my friends... my sister... friends moms birthday... and well mine... but other than that there isn't much going on... i still haven't gotten a present for my sister... well because i think i'm splitting it between my other sister... anyway i think the best presents are just having your closest friends and family around you... things you can't put a monetary value on are the most important... so i got a review session that i have to conduct in about an hour for the class that i TA... the students final is coming up soon since this is the last week... i thought the summer would go by so slow... but i guess i made it through the boring summer somehow... hopefully this upcoming fall semester will bring new surprises... as well as new experiences... and even new people... i'm a people person what can i say... =]

till then...beReflective...

Roadtrip Thoughts...

this weekend was fun... i loved the random dance parties in the living room... enjoying meals around the table as well as games... really felt at home... its nice... hung out in places that i only once heard about but then got to experience... its always fun experiencing and going to new places... now i don't want to sound like a downer... but on the way home i guess having alone time... reality hits in again... school... work... everything... i wonder... how can love just "happen"... especially since there is already love there... i don't know if i should keep knocking on loves door... for once i'd want love to tap me on the shoulder... i'd accept it with open arms... i don't know why or what some people are waiting for... sometimes when there is a good thing in front of them they don't realize its right there and if they want it... its theirs forever... no need for magic.. no need to not look for it since its right there... there isn't a need to wonder if you'll be loved back... especially if there was once love... for those of you that have love waiting for you right out side your door... why don't you invite it in... tell it to take off its shoes... and make itself at home... i think sometimes the best thing to do is nothing... and that's what i'm doing... and that's what i will continue to do... nothing... because i've applied for love one too many times and i'm tired of waiting in line to continually pick up the application just to get the stamp of rejection... if love wants me then love is just going to have to let me know... am i bitter or angry... no... i could never be... how could i be... i guess all i can count on is love... disagree with me if you want... there are equal number of contradictions to love... i guess what do i know... i'm helplessly in love... and she probably doesn't realize... or maybe along with love i am blind...