long but wonderful day/night...

so my TA gig was canceled this morning gave me time to pack and be ready to head out so after class i picked up a sweet gift for a sweet persons birthday and headed off to Columbia... the drive gets easier and easier every time i do it... its almost therapeutic... having time to think... its nice... or just enjoying nature even tho an expressway has been slammed in the center of it but its nice... i know i'm in Missouri when i see that sign i love it says... "speed limit 70 mph" then i just gun it haha... but all in all i had a nice night... ate good food... met new people... hung out... felt relaxed... and just chilled... its nice just to kick it when you don't have any plans to do anything... kainda just going wherever and doing whatever... late night kinko runs at 3am are nice as well as wal-mart runs at 4am to prepare for an awesome breakfast (that i'm not making) which makes it more special! but i'm beat... not even sure if i'm going to sleep yet but hey i was just told sleep is for the weak... i remember during my freshman year my roommate and i used to stay up super late and we had that exact saying written on our dry erase board which was on our door that was always open haha... oh those were the days... i'm always excited and always down for new experiences... and new things...

till then...beAdventurous...

long drives...

long drives are nice... its just me and my baby out on the open road... hearing the her as she softly hums past 4k rpm... she's always screaming for more i can feel it... i have to keep holding back just so that the both of us don't get carried away... sometimes i purposely put on the cruise control just so that i'm not tempted to really give it to her... but its a good feeling... its as if we are one... she's looking her best... and i've taken the best care for her... i know this sounds lame to some people but to me it makes sense... its a different kind of love... a love that will truly never die...

driving also gives me a lot of time to think... to sing... and to just wonder... wonder about the future... whats going to happen to me... i also wonder where other people are going... i don't find myself constantly asking if i'm there yet... because i know when i'll get there and i know these days we don't get a lot of alone time... well some of us i've been getting alot of alone time but the time in my car is different... since i'm going 85mph down the interstate where i can't be interrupted by anyone... i'm excited...

but then again a part of me wouldn't mind if the drive was a few hours shorter =p

till then...beContent...

sleepless nights...

ugh what time is it... spent most of my night breathing in the night air... surfing the net for car parts... i need new rotors and brake pads... hungry so made a sandwich... tried to sleep... a couple hours later still not asleep... turned my computer on and off about 3 times... decided to blog... maybe ambient noise will help... turn on a fan... leave the tv on... nothing... sometimes sleep just decides not to come i guess... wished a friend a happy birthday at 5:30am... that should be something nice to wake up to... thought about doing push ups and sit ups to tire me out... but i'm lazy... makes no sense right... watching cnn... hopefully boring news will bore me to sleep... perhaps some infomercials will do the trick... but i always get stuck watching them... oh man an infomercial for the swivel sweeper just came on... i'm stuck... hopefully sleep comes soon...

oh don't forget to feed my fish -----> thanks =p

till then...beSleepy...

Lyrics that stick out in my head...

these days the only place i listen to music is on the road... going to and from home... and anytime i find myself driving for more than 5 min i listen to my Zune and i've always done this but lyrics have stuck in my head for some reason... good or bad i have no idea they just seem to place a bookmark in there with out me knowing... so just thought i'd put some down...

Teddy Geiger - Love Is A Marathon

cause love is a marathon
you can't always get tired so fast of everyone
slow down and pace yourself
'cause when it's good
its a long open road

Lights - Saviour

i'm a bit of a manic when it's not as i plan it
cause i start losing my head and then i get up in a panic
remember when we were kids and always knew when to quit it
are we denying a crisis or are we scared of admitting it?

i don't want to know

i just want to run to you
and break off the chains, and throw them away
i just want to be so much
and shake off the dust that turned me to rust
sooner than later, i need a saviour, i need a saviour

Taylor Swift - Fearless

and i don't know how it gets better than this
you take my had and drag me headfirst, fearless
and i don't know why but with you i dance
in a storm in my best dress, fearless (yes i'd wear a dress =p)

Owl City - The Saltwater Room

Time together is just never quite enough
When you and i are alone, i've never felt so at home
What will it take to make or break this hint of love?
We need time, only time
When we're apart whatever are you thinking of?
If this is what i call home, why does it feel so alone?
So tell me darling, do you wish we'd fall in love?
All the time, all the time

its interesting how lyrics are, we really don't think about them or read them in print to find what their meaning is... so i guess i've been obsessed with looking up lyrics and reading them... you can really relate to the artist and what might have inspired them to write what they wrote... still my favorite song has been the saltwater room by owl city... its always been my favorite but after reading the lyrics its become my most favorite song now...

try looking at some lyrics of your favorite songs... i bet some of them will surprise you!

till then...beCurious... (like me!)

some really RANDOM things about me...

i'm a roman catholic... i don't like it when people walk slow in front of me... i like traveling... i love driving as well as my car... i can spend a whole weekend detailing my car... i have 3 sisters... i'm a Leo... i can fix just about anything given enough time... i'm a problem solver/outside of the box thinker... i enjoy a nice rum and coke... or a long island iced tea... i believe that no excuse is too little for a celebration... i'm a hopeless romantic... play the guitar... somewhat of a computer geek... ok just a geek in general... i'm very friendly... will do anything for love... easy going... would like to be more spontaneous but i'm pretty spontaneous already... although spontaneous i understand the importance of planning... i program a little... i don't like to read books... i like to read magazines and articles online... i love select television comedy shows... i love surprises... but hate bad surprises... i've cried in "a walk to remember" , "Wall-E" , and a bunch of other romantic/date movies (hence hopeless romantic.. ugh)... i like eating mixed nuts... yogurt... and could probably become a vegetarian if i did not love chicken so much... as well as the very occasional steak... i like baked snacks over fried snacks like goldfish over chips... i like veggie dip and broccoli over chips... my dream car is a Honda NSX... i wish i was in a band... i like blogging... i work at michaels as a certified custom framer... whatever that is... full time student... strawberries are the only fruit with the seeds on the outside... and i like giving gifts because nothing makes me more happy than other people being happy...

till then...beRandom...

family's becoming busier...

i've noticed that since my sisters and i are getting older now its getting harder and harder to plan something when we are all together each weekend we all have something or at least one of us has something to do... its not a bad thing its just something i noticed... i'm either going somewhere that weekend... or my sister has some concert or some charity benefit to go too... my other sister has some college obligation such as moving in or its orientation or its visiting colleges but she's chosen one and she'll be there soon... its funny cuz my parents aren't making a big deal of my sister leaving for college well cuz she's the second one to go... lol i'm gonna feel sorry for my youngest sister when she goes off to college but then again my parents might hold on to her the longest since she's the last one to live with them... other than me when they did not want to let me go when i first moved out but they knew i had to... its weird seeing my sisters going to college i wonder if they may make the same mistakes as i did... i wonder if they will get too caught up in the "college experience" well i guess i turned out ok... so i think they will be fine... and besides they have something that i didn't have... someone older to knock some sense into them... but bottom line is that they gotta learn by making their own mistakes... my dad used to tell me things with the intent of having me not make those same mistakes but some of that isn't true because i have totally done things that he has told me to steer clear of... but i mean i've learned from them and that's most important right... gah almost time for work... gotta make that money... even though i'm not quite sure what i'm saving it for... i guess a rainy day... we'll see...

till then...beObservant...

Every Day...

so i came across this video while browsing through some of Lights music and i saw that she was featured in a band called Ten Second Epic... i instantly fell in love with the song... reminding me that every day brings new things, new chances, new opportunities, and well just another day to enjoy life...the video is cool so i hope you like it too... [lyrics below]



You said, there's no way the days should feel this short
As soon as one ends, the other starts
You said, all day I feel you're playing a part
When all you ever want to do is leave a mark

[chorus]
Every day, another one wasted
Every day, you get up and face it
Every day is a chance for redemption
Every day, every day

You said, time moves fast but you're still staying in park
As every chance takes off, you don't depart
But it's just the defense
For all the moments that name and define what we do
Well how about you?
We're all scared of breaking though

[chorus 2x]

There's gotta be that something more that gets me through the night
I'm out of touch, it's obvious
I'm out of place and over this
There's gotta be that change that takes my path from wrong to right

You said life is way too short
As soon as one ends, another starts

[chorus 3x]

it looks like it's about to rain...

this summer has gone by a faster than i expected... even though i thought it would have gone a lot slower... i've learned a lot this summer... not just from the classes and being at school... but i guess as a person... i mean i've always known a lot about myself because i find myself fascinated with self discovery... what can i say... i'm a thinker... i have a feeling that perhaps this up coming year will blow by me like the metra or amtrack when i used to wait at train stations... whenever i'm on buses or trains and planes i always wonder where people are going... home to their families... maybe surprising their girlfriends or boyfriends... a business trip... or maybe they just bought a one way ticket to start somewhere new... who knows... i wonder now the next time i'm on a bus or a plane or a train where i'll be going... will it be a one way ticket... an important business meeting... seeing my special someone... i guess you could say i like to travel... and i'm accustomed to traveling... you name it i've done it... if it has wheels or wings i've taken it... i've been to so many places in America... mostly because of my family... having them scattered all over... New York.... California... San Francisco... New Jersey... Sand Diego... Maine... Florida... Texas... Ohio... Missouri... and other places that i know will come up to me later... not really sure where i was going with that... but its been pretty boring in DeKalb but somehow although boring time has passed quite quickly... i guess time is relative... time does not really matter... well it matters but its not as important with interpersonal relations... how long you've known someone... how long you've been dating your girlfriend or boyfriend... because you can talk to someone for 1 hour and feel like you have known them for years... and see someone every day and not even know what their favorite color is... their likes or dislikes... i feel like i have a good grasp on the people that i know... i always try to make it a point to get to know people for longer than i actually know them... it makes for the basis of good friendships... relationships... and i guess people now moving so fast paced don't really do that anymore... who knows... classes are about to end... got about 2 weeks left... then i think the weeks of no school before school will drag the longest... hopefully i'll be able to keep myself buried in work... and working on my car... and working out... maybe if i pile it on i won't have time to worry about other things...

new stuffs on my blog!

ok yeah its not that exciting lol i just added a random comments section for anyone to post up anything about anything... it may be about me, a recent post, if you're hungry, pretty much anything :) oh and if you scroll down a bit more you can feed my fish! because they are constantly wondering if there's food! so make sure to give them some :) oh! also under each post there is a share button if you are so inclined to share it with other people lol anyway yes i am bored and yes i know that you could have found out those things on your own but hey its 3 am and i'm not sleepy in an empty house with nothing to do soooo give me a break! =p

till then...beRandom...

empty house...

all i hear is the constant flow of water from the fish tank... the slight hum from my laptop cooling fan... and other than that.... nothing... i think now is the time where i need to be patient more than ever... things have been thrown into perspective for me... i can sort of see what needs to be done... at what pace i need to be moving at... and can only hope that whatever happens down the road will ultimately make me happy... how i hate being in school right now... i feel as if i'm in a vice... and school just won't let go of me... i'm screaming at it to let me live my life... i'm desperately trying to pick the lock out of the cell that i'm in... but just like in prison... you can be put on paroll or let out early with good behavior... and thats what i need to do... so far i've been doing well... getting good grades... keeping up with my studies... i can't wait for it to be over... soon enough... there will be no more tests... no more quizzes... no more reading assignments... only reading for fun... everything will be for making my life better... i want to be that guy who drives home to his special someone... pick up flowers for the vase on the dinner table every monday so that we could come home to the sight and smell of fresh flowers every day... cook dinner for two every night instead of cooking for one... watch our favorite sitcoms and then just pass out on the couch... but first things first... i can't do or start any of that if i'm still in school... so for now i just gotta play by the rules... hopefully my last year goes by faster than i can imagine...

till then...beFulfilled...

the one that sticks out...

i'm sure we have felt that feeling... where we look out into the world... we have friends... family... and out other significant others... but you have one person that for all of the reasons in the world glows whenever your eyes pass across them... its like standing against the wall at your high school dance... and you catch a glimpse of your high school crush walking towards you you get nervous... and suddenly tremendously shy... until you realize she's just walking over to her boyfriend that's standing next to you... its like that but without the puppy love... its seeing that person that you know will glow forever in your heart... its not a crush... its way more than that... i see the glowing all the time... even if its out of the corner of my eye... its always there... and i believe it will always be there... i don't think anyone else could shine as bright... call me cliche if you want... its the truth... i wonder if i glow... so bright that her eyes can't be taken off mine... that the light of me is always there even in the corners of her eyes... well i guess perhaps i will know someday... i would not want either of us to be "the one that got away" to eachother...

yes i agree it's like a present...

in response to A Sunny Storm's : It's like a present entry... just reading your post made me smile... it made me think about the time when i first felt that way... it was like getting an unexpected gift... i feel like every moment that we keep gets placed into a box and put on the shelves of our heart... but i find myself constantly looking back and picking out old boxes... blowing off the dust that has settled on some of them... yes they still make me happy and grateful for what i remember to be inside them... but there just isn't anything like adding to your collection... i always loved having things to place into new boxes... yeah its nice looking at old presents but they def are not the real thing... and yes not all the things in my boxes give me warm fuzzy feelings but learned from them i have... sometimes i think some of the boxes that seem to be worn out at the corners from being handled too much should be locked... for when i really need it...

just one of those days...

sure you have one of those days... but what if one of those days comes more frequent... there's one thing that i've noticed but i find it easier to blog when there are things on my mind... when there are things that bother me... these days it seems like there is always something on my mind... and that there is always something bothering me... my summer has come and gone so fast i did not even realize that its almost august... nothing special happened to me today... today's like any other day... i set my alarm at 8am even tho i get up uat 10 well because so that i could greet a friend good morning but now i just hit the snooze until 9:45 i don't think it would make any difference if my morning cheer was there or not... but then i'm a teacher assistant from 11-12:15 then i have my computer programming class from 12:30-1:45 but after that i get hungry so i make food and drink a protein shake getting ready for my 3:30 or 4 o'clock workout i try to stay at the gym for about 2 hours... i mean well cuz its good for me and plus it just kills more time in the day... lately i've been having that feeling of just getting through the day... not really enjoying the day... then i'll go home eat a after workout snack... hop in the shower... then watch episodes from my favorite sitcoms... then purposely lose track of time then call it a night when i pass out... sometimes its at 12 sometimes its at 2... then i do it all over again the next day... on the weekends i work... to make money... to save... for nothing in particular... just to save... then the week starts and i get a think to myself maybe this will be the week that's unlike any of the other weeks... but usually by Monday night i get to grips with myself... and just focus on what i'm going to do the next day... but hey what can i say... its just one of those days right?

till then...beSpontaneous...

I Love You...

you'll notice that this video was shot all in Chicago which is my hometown city and well it strikes a chord in my life as well as my heart... by watching this video i notice many places that i've been and had similar experiences with the people in the video so i guess i can relate... but then again i guess we all can relate... Tom (lead singer of plain white t's) and Angie met in Chicago :) it says that at the end but thought i'd share it now...



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