random thoughts...

ok yeah i know i haven't posted on here ever but give me a break k?

i'm getting alot older now and i'm not sure what to do about myself, i mean i know the whole finish college thing and get a good job after than and what not and i guess that's what i'm planning to do is to get school done with and over just so that i don't have to worry about it anymore. but what if i don't want it to be over? what if i'm not ready to grow up? what if things are moving way to fast? i have no idea things just sometimes don't make sense like what i should be doing right now. the past year i have been pretty antisocial and for reasons unknown i have started to become more social because making and maintaining friendships require an effort on my part as well. call me crazy but i kind of like how i have one more year (well according to my plan) in school and that would put me up to the 5 year plan which i don't mind because i was talking to my cousin about the 5 year plan and he said its a good way to go because you leave college with no regrets you do the things that you want to do and hopefully... hopefully you don't have any regrets after. so that's why for next year i decided to run for an e-board position on AAA (asian american association) of niu hopefully i'll get a position there elections are in about a month so we'll just have to see.

i guess i like to keep myself preoccupied with things in and around school because thinking about what happens after college stresses me out. internships, careers, where i would want to work somewhere in Chicago or somewhere in Kansas City with my girlfriend Katie who i have been dating for 2 years thank you very much :) but just more questions of keeping in touch with old friends or even getting in touch with friends that i have lost contact with. i'm a people person and i don't want to end up doing the same thing every day, is that too much to ask? or is it just bound to happen... i don't know i guess as of right now i just need to focus on what i'm going to do the next day and well as i always say/tell myself to cross that bridge when you get there.

till then.... beHopeful