"Dulces Sueños"

it feels like forever since I've payed any attention to this... quite frankly I don't even know what I'm referencing in my previous post from 2012... anyway a lot has changed in my life since then... many moments filled with absolute joy... it's been a while since someone has filled me with so much happiness... and just like that it's gone and all I have now are the memories... with anything I knew the risks going in... knew that I would be putting my heart at high risk of being broken... but that didn't matter to me... any risk was always outweighed by how special you made me feel...  I don't know why I tend to find myself here during times where the light of hope isn't so bright... I feel as though I'm seeing everything around me through a hazy filter... I'll be sitting with friends and will just stare off... tune everything out... sometimes I wonder if you feel the same... sometimes I wonder what's in store for us in the future... if there is even a future... I wonder how it would be... I just hope i'm doing the right thing... I tend to over think... how much space is too much... there are times where I would just want to pick up the phone and tell you that these past couple of days have been very difficult and that all I want to do is just hold you because missing you becomes too overwhelming sometimes... a heavy heart although not difficult to carry around at first... grows to be quite challenging as the days go by... but I guess this is what love does to people... feelings so strong that some can't help but write poetry or songs to help express themselves... I find myself listening to artists with songs similar to what I feel now... it's like listening to some songs for the first time... I guess I should take this opportunity as a time for reflection... to really assess the things I want for the future... hopefully I find myself somewhere in your future... until then I'll just have to hope we find each other in our dreams...

until then... beHopeful