thinkers...

if you're a thinker like me you'll be constantly be thinking about every and any possible answer to solve the problem that you're in... now this may sound like a strength but could it be possibly be thought of as a weakness... perhaps not dealing with a situation may be the best possible answer to solving the situation... but i guess nature wiring me as a thinker makes me think completely otherwise... why do some people chose to push issues that are clearly lingering... i guess waiting for the dust to settle is a way of looking at it... but if the dust settles completely we sometimes forget what our goal is... or maybe once the dust completely settles we will know what we want or what the answer is because it will be clear... and in front of us... if you don't consider yourself a thinker... you should try it out... there is a world of things you can find out about yourself...

till then...beThoughtful...

a piece of their minds...

i read a couple blogs and subscribe to others and well i always like to share what i read with others because for some reason i get this urge to share that maybe the people that read my blog will also find it touching or moving...

well the first post that i read is a good reminder to keep life simple try not to over think things or make things more complicated than they actually are because most of the time what you're looking for is right in front of your face...

A Sunny Storm : Right in Front of You

the second post that i read gave me the feeling as if i was sitting there breathing with him... its sort of a reminder to only take in the good things in life... and to just release the bad things... because these days people like to bottle up things inside until they explode... lets remember to breathe and just let go of the things that are less important...

All Things Chill > The Art Of Breathing

its nice to remember to see other perspectives on things because if we stick with what one person says or take the advice of just one person i believe we would sell our self short or even perhaps not allow us to experience something that we did not know we could...

till then...beOpen-Minded...

incomplete...

so last June my cousin well not really my cousin but i've known him so long he's practically my cousin played a song that he wrote called incomplete at my house... i almost cried... no i would be lying if i said that i didn't tear up... i've become somewhat drawn to the lyrics of songs and his lyrics just hit me so hard... i could tell that he has felt what i have felt by just hearing those lyrics... you can't write like this without experiencing it first hand... well here it is and its wonderful... check out the lyrics below... its what i've been trying to explain how i feel but its still only the beginning of how i feel... i hope you enjoy it as much as i do...

Lyrics

so when u comin back to me/i've lost so much/and i can't go back to where things used to be/can't u see i've fallen/like a torch without a flame/without u it ain't the same/like these flowers without a vase/oh how i long to see ur pretty face

the day that we first met/how can i forget/how our souls connect/and when i heard ur voice/the angels up above came down to rejoice/like the moon without the stars to shine brightly from afar/like a city without no street/my life without u would be incomplete

chorus: you'll always be/you'll always be the sun in the sky/when my world comes crashin' by/ your're always near/ you'll always be near in my heart/but this distance it just tears me apart

how the time has passed us by/still we try to keep the flame alive/but ur just so far away/gotta connect before we're old and gray/like a field without the rain without u it's causin' pain/like these words without this song/to prove my love for u is oh so strong (chorus)

so when u comin' back to me

till then... bePassionate...

Lights has got a new video!

this is her newest video for her new song "saviour"

i love the lyrics, i love all of the underlying hidden meanings, and i love her style so check it out! i'm sure you'll love it too...
"Saviour" Music Video

i <3 LIGHTS

the day i was born...

so yesterday was my sisters 16th birthday... i remember my 16th birthday... kind of... i had a bunch of my friends over and it was fun... don't remember what we did... i think i just liked being around my friends and family... you know people who cared about you... its getting closer and closer to my 22nd birthday... and well i guess you could say i'm not the least bit excited... is it wrong for me to just hope its goes by like any other day... i don't know... i know what i'll be wishing for... i think i'll pre-wish before my birthday... the only thing that i want for my birthday isn't of any monetary value... you can't make it or find it anywhere... i just want to be surrounded by the people who care about me... i want to have the people that will take enough effort to hang out with me even for one day just because they believe that birthdays are a big deal even tho i don't... no presents... just themselves... perhaps some of my close friends have forgotten... and the last thing that i want is a generic happy birthday text... people who really care will call and people who care the most will be there... perhaps i'm just expecting too much... birthdays are overrated anyway... its just another year... one step closer to cheaper insurance... i don't know why when i was a kid looking forward to my birthday was the most exciting thing ever... but now why do i feel like i could care less if it came at all...

i found love... kind of...

a couple of days ago when i was closing at Michael's, in one of the framing aisles i saw a green basket and inside it was wooden letters that made the word love... now i thought it was interesting... and trust me i did not set this up in any way it was just there out of its place by the rest of the frames... i wasn't expecting to find it there... and i wasn't looking for it... it sort of just caught me by surprise... and it was very ironic... i guess it was a reminder or something... i have no idea... but maybe someone or something's trying to tell me something... so yeah i get it... love will come when i least expect it... it was irony... right in front of my face and i think it could not have been more clear... now i can only hope to find it like this for real... i kind of chuckled to myself when i found it like this... and thought to myself... now if i could only do this in real life haha... well the time will com and when it does it will be amazing...till then...beHopeful...

waking up early...

ok for some reason i woke up at 6am today... weird i know... and ironic cuz i don't have school anymore... well for 2 weeks i mean... why did i wake up so early... i have no idea... songs will randomly pop into my head at random times... and this morning... at 6am... the song "i wanna be with you" by Mandy Moore just popped into my head... does it reflect the way i feel... maybe... or is it just because we saw the movie center stage in the class that i teacher assist in... who knows... perhaps a bit of both... i don't know... now i've been awake for almost 2 hours and thinking if i should just go back to sleep or stick it out for the rest of the day... oh man... also twitter has been acting strange lately and i don't like it lol... hopefully it comes back to its normal functioning self...

oh ya here's the video just in case you wanted to hear the song in my head...

end of summer...

so i'm finally done with classes... just hanging out with friends... no school for 2 weeks then its back to school again but i guess that's good... working every weekend... and for the next week i'm workin close to 40 hours so that should be fun... i guess its money right... oh well... not that excited about turning 22 i mean i guess its just another year... it wet by so fast... makes me want to slow things down so that i can remember them and enjoy the times that were great... but at the same time i don't want to slow down at this point... just because i've heard and i feel like my last year at school will go by super fast... i'm sure i'll find some way to keep myself occupied... if you read this and know me hit me up :) i'm sure we'll find something to do!

why is Kansas City Following me?!

okay so checked my email today and i'll get random people following me on twitter but i mean out of all things i get this...cool but weird... but cool! i guess i'll be up to date now on the new "hip" places in Kansas City lol... yes i just said hip... oh well...

till then...beSurprised...

have a nice day...

at the office... at your apartment... at your house... at your school... in class... in your cubicle... on your bed... your couch... your desk... where ever you are... have a nice day :)

and remember to smile! why? why not?!

XD

planning the future...

well today i looked over my fall schedule and well if i said next semester is gonna be easy i'd be lying... but i'm actually excited to continue and finish my school i guess this year is going to go by fast hopefully... am i going to hate it... probably... but after this its going to be the last year that i live in my apartment... last year to enjoy the down time... before i start my life... its funny how much planning becomes more and more important when we get older... am i scared... sure... but i'm more than ready to tackle the hell out of it...

till then...beStrong...

they call her love...

She is Love and she's all I need...

why do i feel like i need to write...

i don't know... perhaps its my way of dumping things out on "paper"... to where i know that someone out there is reading this and can perhaps relate to me... or can share similar experiences with me... i don't know... why do we always make situations more complicated than they really are... i wish for every complicated situation both parties could just confront each other and tell the other whats on their mind and what causes the awkward/uneasy/not having any idea whats going on feeling... i've always been on to bring up situations like that because i feel like it saves the two people alot of time... it saves time that could potentially be wasting... i say potentially because sometimes all they need is time but you can't no for sure if you don't talk about it... its hard because you see where you want to be... where you want to end up... what would make you happy... but don't know how to get there... i think its because we clutter up our thoughts with many things... i myself am guilty of this but i think i need to start cleaning up the mess and the garbage that has been lingering... then maybe i can start working my way towards what makes me happy... i know i say this now but who knows... i don't even know if whoever reads this actually understands what i'm saying... or if they are just laughing at my reasoning... well take it for what its worth... there are many paths to the finish... i guess i'm just taking the longest path...

edit: oh almost forgot... don't forget to feed my fish they are looking a bit hungry...

its the feeling you get when...

you are waiting for a firework to explode...
you drop something and are watching it before it hits the ground...
you wait to see if someone is guilty or not guilty...
your about to be put in a situation that could be potentially awkward...
you are about to ask someone on a first date...
you are staring at the phone because you wonder if he/she will call you...
you don't know what to do... because either could mess everything up...

ugh... doing nothing is hard... i can't just do nothing... i need something to happen... i need to do something... but why do i feel like that's the wrong thing to do... i hate it when both options have equal valid points... it makes things oh so much easier...