why do i feel like i need to write...

i don't know... perhaps its my way of dumping things out on "paper"... to where i know that someone out there is reading this and can perhaps relate to me... or can share similar experiences with me... i don't know... why do we always make situations more complicated than they really are... i wish for every complicated situation both parties could just confront each other and tell the other whats on their mind and what causes the awkward/uneasy/not having any idea whats going on feeling... i've always been on to bring up situations like that because i feel like it saves the two people alot of time... it saves time that could potentially be wasting... i say potentially because sometimes all they need is time but you can't no for sure if you don't talk about it... its hard because you see where you want to be... where you want to end up... what would make you happy... but don't know how to get there... i think its because we clutter up our thoughts with many things... i myself am guilty of this but i think i need to start cleaning up the mess and the garbage that has been lingering... then maybe i can start working my way towards what makes me happy... i know i say this now but who knows... i don't even know if whoever reads this actually understands what i'm saying... or if they are just laughing at my reasoning... well take it for what its worth... there are many paths to the finish... i guess i'm just taking the longest path...

edit: oh almost forgot... don't forget to feed my fish they are looking a bit hungry...