familiar grounds... (not really making sense...)

its nice talking to an old friend... not just a how's the weather talk... but a good "here's whats going on in my life" talk... i guess its good to feel like your still wanted... even if it is just to bring bumming news... but i'll get over it... small steps right? i guess i can decipher from the conversation that we're still wanting to be in each others lives but at the same time... it feels as if the other would be perfectly content if i "happened" to just fizzle out or dissolve out of their lives... not intentionally of course... where our memories just turn into thoughts of... "well it would not have worked out anyway"... but i believe this won't happen... well... i hope this won't happen... i just think it would be so sad to come face to face and say to each other "well it was fun while it lasted" shake hands and go our separate ways... maybe its just me having a rough day... maybe... the subtle ways i know you still care... the ways you put emphasis on certain words in our conversation... as if to make sure i know that you're hinting at something important... maybe i read into things too much... i'm not sure what you're going through... well i don't even know what i'm going through... i guess we're just getting through... if we find each other at the end of this long dark and cold tunnel then great... if not i'll make sure to make a fire for you at the exit to warm you up... i just hope the memories as our clothing keep us warm through this journey... we're going to need it... well at least i know i will...

yeah i don't know if any of this makes sense... but somehow everything does in my mind... sometimes...