finding old songs on youtube...

here's a song long forgotten by me until i stumbled upon it by mistake i guess its only appropriate that i share it with you :)



Lyrics are always good too :p

she rolls the window down
and she
talks over the sound
of the cars that pass us by
and i don't know why
but shes changed my mind

Chorus:
would you look at her
she looks at me
shes got me thinking about her constantly
but she don't know how i feel
and as she carries on without a doubt
i wonder if shes figured out
i'm crazy for this girl

she was the one to hold me
the night
the sky fell down
and what was i thinking when
the world didn't end
why didn't i know what i know now

Chorus

right now
face to face
all my fears
pushed aside
and right now
i'm ready to spend the rest of my life
with you

chorus 2x

till then...beTrue...

is chivalry dead...

i have to admit that chivalrous guys are a dying breed... people forget... or just don't do the things that they should to treat a women the way she's supposed to be treated... you should always offer your coat... open doors... pull out chairs... if they need help like killing a bug you better kill it... always think 3 steps ahead... don't wait to be asked... if you're thirsty chances are they are too... if you are going to get a napkin... chances are they will probably want one too... don't even get me started on guys who yell at girls... or guys who are insensitive... guys who don't try to see how a woman is feeling... they just jump to being angry... and for what... there is no reason and no room for that anywhere... it ALWAYS makes the situation worse... i have no idea why women continue to be friends or continue to be in a relationship with these kinds of people... yeah maybe he's funny... but is it worth being yelled at... being cursed at... no (btw guys you should never swear at your significant other its disrespectful and just plain unnecessary) but yet these girls take the guy back... why... because its the a-holes who always get second chances... the women buy into the garbage that they feed them... when the nice guy who sits on the sidelines waiting for a chance to show her how she deserves to be treated never gets a chance... why... cuz they finish last... i know alot of you don't believe that but its partially true... nice guys do finish last and well its just cuz the a-holes keep feeding this bs to the girls who thing "this is how a relationship is supposed to be..." when its not! i guess people have to learn through experience and sometimes to learn something you have or might end up losing something that was there all along... i'm not saying i'm the perfect guy but i do try to be chivalrous... bring flowers just because... open doors cuz well you know they can do it themselves... its not like we don't think you can do it... we are just trying to be nice... carry her to her bed when she passes out on the couch... make her hot tea when she's feeling sick... have a nice dinner waiting for her when she gets home from work... things like this the little things that make life easier, happier when she's with you... if guys started to realize this maybe there would not be so much failed marriages... my parents have been together for quite some time now... why? because my dad will still pick up my moms favorite chocolate at the store... or my mom will grab my dads favorite peanuts on her way home from work... my dad still makes my mom tea after a long day at work... its these things that just remind the other of how much we love and care about them... so to all you ladies out there wait for your prince charming... your knight in shining armor... and sometimes you can't wait for him you gotta go out and get him... how do you think he feels when he sees you with the "a-hole" why? because you deserve better... never settle for less... as ne-yo would say... whats the matter with you...



till then...beChivalrous...

Gotta work for Love...

so i decided to put a quote at the top of the page i saw it somewhere and it rang so true in my head... so i wanted to share it with you...

ok i admit i was a bit irritated with my last post cuz i was so hungry, tired, annoyed with my side mirror, and then had no sleep followed by a tooth extractions (i had 4 pulled) so i guess you could say my head was not in the right place... love has to be worked at... it takes time... patience... you can't rush things... jump into things... you have to be willing to go the distance... and i am willing to go the distance... you have to be able to work overtime for love... especially a second chance at love... you can't expect to sit on your ass and have love work just like that... just like flipping a switch... i'll hold up my sign as long as it takes... and it will say "will work for love..." i admit i will feel like i'm going nowhere but when you are nowhere you are actually "now here" :) and thats being somewhere... so i mean i have a good feeling about this... this time will be different... a good different... maybe its the drugs that i'm not now... but i'm pretty sure its not lol... but i've always knew i would work forever for love again... so if you are out there searching for love... don't give up... because sometimes you gotta work overtime... and you have to never give up on love...

till then...beDedicated...

its like pulling teeth...

i guess that its appropriate that i called this post that since in about 2 hours i will have four of my wisdom teeth removed... don't worry i'm not nervous about that since i'll be knocked out... but i guess the feeling of pulling teeth has been a feeling far too familiar to me... moving without direction... last night while driving i had a lot of time to think... i'm always thinking... and i always felt bad for the mule... you know the one with the carrot dangled in front of him by his driver... the mule does not know better he thinks he's going to get the carrot... so he trots along happily thinking he will get the carrot... but see the driver is also smart... when the mule becomes tired and then starts to get the feeling that he may never get the carrot... the mule suddenly gets distressed and slows down... so the driver moves the carrot very close to the mules face... maybe even perhaps close enough for the mule to get a bit of that delicious carrot that's been in front of his face... now hope is thrown back into the mules mind... so he keeps trotting along happily thinking that he will get the carrot... now i don't know if the mule ever does... maybe after the long journey the driver will decide to be nice and give him the carrot... and other times the driver would just keep the carrot for next time... sometimes i feel like that mule... unable to control my emotions... at times i feel like if i just keep going it will be worth it... but other times i feel like since i am unaware of the length of the journey... i find it hard to continue on... i feel sorry for the mule... his body taken to its extremes... just as my emotions have been taken to its extremes... which ties in my title... its frustrating... like pulling teeth... i always wondered what the driver would do to the mule if he just stopped moving and refused the carrot... if the mule just got tired of having something in front of its face that he could never have... i bet the mule would just rather have nothing in its face don't you think... i don't know... i guess we can't really compare ourselves to mules... but i feel like there is still some resemblance there... i guess all we can really do is put our faith in the driver... hope that they are putting that carrot in front of our face for a reason... trust that the driver will steer us in the right direction and eventually give us that carrot at the end... i mean of course you could also just kick yourself loose from the carriage and run free... but that's not what i want to do... i don't know how long the journey is... and i can say i still have some energy left... but i just hope the driver is not surprised if i ever decide to kick the carriage somewhere down the road and break free... only time will tell right... well that's what everybody says...

till then...beThoughtful...

i want you to want me...

is it crazy for me to feel wanted... to be wanted... to be needed... to be desired... equally as i would give... i've been putting myself out there for a while now... by no means am i needy (lol just wanted to get that straight) don't worry its not a sad emo post... it has just been the recurring theme in my head... i think this time i won't initiate things... just let things run its course... just enjoy things as they come... i mean whats the rush right?



oh here is the video :) i like their hair!

till then...beWanted...

patience is apparently a virtue...

patience... i have a lot of it... i get it from my dad... i just don't know the amount... i hope i have enough... patience is apparently a virtue... its a double edge sword... its what you need but don't want to deal with... i guess patience is my best quality but it is also my weakness... patient for things to come around... i can see now how people can lose their patience... i keep telling myself... no not me... i'm patient... but maybe that's my problem... i'm too patient...

till then...bePatient.... maybe....

polishing the armor....

things are always nice in the beginning... a first kiss... first time holding hands... the awkwardness but its a good awkwardness... laughing at each other because we catch the other staring... the little gifts that we give to show our appreciation... its those times that are always nice to relive... they say slow and steady wins the race (according to that rabbit and turtle story lol) so i think that this time i'm going to take it real slow... slow so that every moment can be savored... so that every moment will be special... so that every moment lasts... i just hope that i'll be able to polish my armor so that it will shine bright... brighter than ever before... so that i can ride in on my white horse grab the damsel in distress by the hand and throw her onto the back of my horse and we'll ride off into the sunset... but i mean well one can dream right? i just hope that the damsel in distress won't be disappointed when her knight comes riding up and she isnt everything that she would want in her knight in shining armor... i guess i've got some polishing to do... good thing i've got an automatic buffer :p

till then...beChivalrous...

starting over again.... maybe...

its harder than you think... i over think... finding the right words to say... trying to not come on too strong... do i smell... my hands are sweaty... my voice is slightly shaky... i can cover up my nervousness... but is it enough... will it be enough... will me trying to cover up my nervousness make it that much easier to see right through me... perhaps... i guess it helps because we are on the same boat... i guess it helps that we have experienced the same things... kind of... maybe that doesn't help... i pray i don't get tired of trying... each time i feel like i'm so close... but have no idea of where the end is... where the end is just the beginning... i'm probably not making sense... i guess that's expected these types of situations will do that... it causes you to not make sense... to question yourself... when you really should not... just be yourself i keep telling myself... but what if myself isnt good enough... it has to be good enough... regardless i should just dive in... i'm gonna need some help... not sure if i'll be able to do it all on my own... i want to feel wanted... who knows perhaps i'm just making things bigger than they really are... i guess i just need to step back... assess the situation... and take things as they come... for the mean time just try to be me... although even that right now seems to be a challenge... why is it like that... why is it this way...

similar surroundings yet new experiences...

soooo had Mojitos last night my friend was kind enough to have me experience them for the first time... not bad at all its a very nice chill drink... just make sure you use a cheesecloth or some sort of strainer so that some of the mint leaves find their way up through your straw and into your mouth... it also lessens the appearance of you drinking water out of your fish tank lol... but it was really good! i've been trying to find some lowtop lace less chucks here in columbia but no luck... the mall is "SUPER HUGE" here haha... maybe i'll find some somewhere else... i need something to go with my shorts! lol and its not always awesome to wear flip flops all the time.... bought a new fragrance today at macys with another close friend she did not have to save lives at the hospital today so while her roommates were making copies at kinkos and selling ad-space around town we went shopping lol... always a good time :) she ended up getting a fragrance as well but did not find it in her heart to buy those other gladiator sandals... perhaps next time... i kind of want to bbq today but have a vegetarian bbq haha... yeah i know it sounds crazy... but fire up the grill throw on some boca burgers, mushrooms, peppers, other random veggies and you've got yourself a solid meal... not to mention we could also try a round 2 of the mojitos again :) its nice being out of my usualness... don't worry for all of ya who miss me back or perhaps you don't even miss me at all lol i'll be back faster than you can say Tony Danza Extravaganza Backyard Bonanza 10 times fast :p

till then...beOpen-to-new-things...

Surprise for a good friend...

so i woke up this morning at like 6:30 packed the night before so that i would be able to surprise one of my good friends... she works at kinkos and that's where i'm posting from haha... i came early because i wanted to get some solid hanging out time and plus i was about ready to explode from boredom at home... so yeah not really sure what we're gonna do... perhaps shop... or... just hang around... just being in a different place feels nice... it was weird driving up here... everything seemed very familiar... but then again at the same time it all felt new again... not quite sure how to explain it... its like you know that you've been there before a couple of times but this time its different... oh well i'm sure it will probably hit me later... but nevertheless i'm excited to be here :) i'm excited for some special popcorn... some american tail... some columbian eats (the city not the country lol) and just some of the things that i guess i missed from this town... i also just want to kick it with some friends that i havent seen in a while...

till then...be Spontaneous...

waiting for my laundry... (again..)

while waiting for my laundry i texted one of my friends for something to blog about now mind you this very good friend of mine knows me quite well and they suggested "Having hope, great friends, being happy with what you are doing and not being afraid of the future" i can honestly say that i've been having a bit more hope lately... but its scary... too much hope can bring you so far up than when you fall you'll fall so hard it will hurt so bad... i guess i've been cautious with my feelings... trying not to experience the extremes... of being too happy... or too sad... just staying at a happy median... i find myself playing it safe... doing things by the book... and i guess there is a time in everyones life where these things need to be done... maybe i'll be more of a risk taker again... maybe not who knows... but one thing i do have is great friends... friends who will be there for me... friends who i can say that without them i would not have been able to pick myself up... friends who i owe more than what i make at michales lol... but i guess i used to be afraid of what would happen to me... what my future holds... whats supposed to be... whats written... if its even written... if i said that i wasn't scared of the future i would be lying... but i have strength in myself... to be able to handle whatever the future throws at me... because i know i'll always have my support from my friends and family... now i realize that sometimes i may have to make the journey alone... and that's ok with me... sometimes when you are the most alone is where you really learn things about yourself... learn things you would have never known... and in the end when everything is all said and done it makes you a better, stronger person... i've always been a bit religious and i believe that god doesn't give us anything that we can't handle... so the next time you're thinking about the future and you're terrified there's no need to be... just take things one day at a time... focus on the small victories... you got this... i got this... we got this...

till then...beFearless... like the Taylor Swift song lol =p

having someone listen....

its always nice to find that someone who will listen to you... someone who understands you... who gets how you think... its nice when the both of you are on the same page... you end up learning a lot from each other... helping each other... two heads are always better than one... sometimes its nice for someone else to tell you whats in your head without you telling them... its sort of affirms your decisions to do things... sort of that hey look they think this too we both can't be wrong... and i think it works... sometimes i wonder why people pick me to open up to... or how i pick the people to open up to... then i had an abstract thought... what if somehow we were able to sense like minds... be able to sense another person and just know that they will have similar views... like a 7th sense cuz i guess there is a 6th already lol but i honestly believe that somehow someway that the way we select who to open up to depends on something that we cant see... feel... or even imagine it just happens... we gravitate toward those people... perhaps its what keeps us in check... perhaps its what keeps us from going insane... perhaps its a necessary part of us being human... whatever it is i like it and i hope you keep an open heart and mind because only then you will be able to gravitate...

till then...beThere...

when i grow up i wanna be...

ok well i know now... like today i know exactly what i want to do for the rest of my life... (career wise) all from this 5 minute experience... crazy i know, but i'll explain... ok so i woke up at 5am this morning to drive down with my mom to the county hospital where she works at, she knows this oral surgeon who knows his stuff and could hook me up with my teeth haha... anyway (side note) knowing someone who works at a hospital REALLY cuts down the wait time to like... nothing lol... i kainda felt bad for cutting in front of everyone but hey if you know someone who works there they bump you up to the top haha... anyway after all of that i was walking out to the main entrance with my mom when these two people came out to the elevator... a woman who seemed to be in her mid to late twenties, and a man in what seemed to be of the same age... my mom had already started a conversation with them... as i approached them i could already tell who they were... their nice business casual attire... their leather messenger bags... both very clean looking yet at the same time very friendly... it could be only one thing... reps... my mom always told me about the representatives that go to the hospital that would try to sell instruments and other sorts of things to the hospital... they were awesome... by just observing their conversation with my mom i could just tell that their main priority was putting their clients first... i got excited seeing them talk... seeing them in action... its what i wanted to do... its exactly what i wanted to do... i want to be the PR guy... the guy who says "let me take you out to lunch and we'll talk it over"... after they left my mom told me that they did indeed take her out to lunch a couple of times since shes in charge of some of the hospital expenses but anyway she said that the girl was a communications major! which gave me hope because since my major is Organizational and Corporate Communications its exactly what i wanted to get into... just one more year... i'll be able to get out there... it will be awesome... i can't wait... it will be awesome...

till then...beDetermined...

a gloomy day..

today was quite nice in the morning then it became all gloomy i have no idea why i hope it does not rain on keith's "Tony Danza Extravaganza Backyard Bonanza" cuz i mean it would just ruin it haha but they have done it before so we will just have to see... i'm prolly gonna go for a bit to say hi a friend of mine is leaving for the military and i guess its gonna be one of his last chances to kick it before he gets booted off... for it being a gloomy day i can say that my mood doesn't reflect the weather so that's always a good thing right? i needed to cut the grass today but decided not to so i guess i will be punished with wet grass tomorrow... but i guess we will just have to see...

oh here's a pic of some bro-sis love =p (it was my sisters prom yesterday... oh prom... lol)
till then... beCRAAAZY...