waiting for my laundry... (again..)

while waiting for my laundry i texted one of my friends for something to blog about now mind you this very good friend of mine knows me quite well and they suggested "Having hope, great friends, being happy with what you are doing and not being afraid of the future" i can honestly say that i've been having a bit more hope lately... but its scary... too much hope can bring you so far up than when you fall you'll fall so hard it will hurt so bad... i guess i've been cautious with my feelings... trying not to experience the extremes... of being too happy... or too sad... just staying at a happy median... i find myself playing it safe... doing things by the book... and i guess there is a time in everyones life where these things need to be done... maybe i'll be more of a risk taker again... maybe not who knows... but one thing i do have is great friends... friends who will be there for me... friends who i can say that without them i would not have been able to pick myself up... friends who i owe more than what i make at michales lol... but i guess i used to be afraid of what would happen to me... what my future holds... whats supposed to be... whats written... if its even written... if i said that i wasn't scared of the future i would be lying... but i have strength in myself... to be able to handle whatever the future throws at me... because i know i'll always have my support from my friends and family... now i realize that sometimes i may have to make the journey alone... and that's ok with me... sometimes when you are the most alone is where you really learn things about yourself... learn things you would have never known... and in the end when everything is all said and done it makes you a better, stronger person... i've always been a bit religious and i believe that god doesn't give us anything that we can't handle... so the next time you're thinking about the future and you're terrified there's no need to be... just take things one day at a time... focus on the small victories... you got this... i got this... we got this...

till then...beFearless... like the Taylor Swift song lol =p