ok so i've been kainda sick... it bothers me i think i may have a slight fever... looks like i'll crack open a box of the lipton chicken soups... that always makes me feel better... my body aches... but i know with some rest i'll bounce back... i always do... but this being sick has given me alot of time to think... i stare at my phone constantly... scroll through the pictures that i have on there... its interesting what pictures you'll find and be surprised at how long ago those pictures were taken... its different when you see pictures on the phone because you can remember exactly what you were doing when you held up your phone to take a picture... some of them happy... others memorable... and then there are the pictures that you'll never forget... lately i've been pressed with decisions... but its usually about the immediate future... so like within the next 5 min lol... i can see the goal... i know what i want to do... but i don't want to ruin anything by making the wrong decision every 5 min... sometimes it comes to me every minute of the day... i know i'm supposed to steer clear... sometimes answering a decision may cause me to smother the subject matter... but then what if i'm supposed to follow my heart... what if that's whats needed... what if i'm screwing it up right now thinking i'm doing the right thing... how much is too much... will too little give the wrong impression... i guess i've gotten too used to keeping my distance... as if there wasn't enough distance... but i'll take an infinite number of miles over emotional distance any day... i guess only time will tell... it always does...
till then...beThoughtful...
Monday, June 29, 2009
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