a brighter day...

ok sorry for the super last emo post...

emoness aside i've done alot of thinking i mean A LOT of thinking... thinking is in my blood how can i not right?

anyway i'm feeling a lot better now, not my best but better now. i understand what needs to happen and understand what i need to do with my life.

i have family counting on me, friends counting on me, and most importantly myself counting on me

i have goals, goals of finishing up school within the year so that my parents will be proud of me and wont have to pay multiple tuitions since my sisters are entering college

so no more parties (well i mean significantly less) no more wasting time and just "getting by" instead of getting by i need to get through it.

i've been having feelings of constriction, i'm tired of school i need to be done with it already. i want to get out of DeKalb i want to get out of my home town just to somewhere where i can start fresh somewhere new i mean i love my home towns and my family but i feel like i'm not free. life is about being free aint it?

i figure that i should take this time to put some goals down so that i can look back to see if i have accomplished them.

1. be at optimum physical health (since i have a mild case of high blood pressure)
- 1 mile a day
2. graduate school by spring of 2010
3. get a decent career and help my parents pay for my sisters college (of course if i can afford it)
- i mean i won't sacrifice living in a box lol
4. to not forget to have fun in life
- taking time to "stop and smell the roses"

i just need to take things one day at a time...

till then...beStrong...