waiting for my laundry...

today was a very long yet short tiring day... worked at 10am till about 4 then went hope worked out for a bit ate dinner then next thing i knew its already 12! anyway to my surprise i've been enjoying myself lately, since i've been home i've been having a lot of me time/alone time and i guess its not to bad because i'm so used to being around people when i'm in school that i guess i forget what i do when its just me. my cousins from new jersey just left so i think i'm gonna take my bed back upstairs so that i'm not sleeping in this cold basement lol anyway well tomorrow is memorial day and i'm going to visit my grandpa at the cemetery and pay my respects, its probably going to be followed up by my family going out to eat in china town not too excited about that but hey i guess its tradition right? its kind of sad that i don't remember my grandpa i have pictures of me sitting on his lap and my dad would tell me stories of when i would get in trouble i would just run into his lap and my dad wouldn't be able to punish me i guess he was like "base" haha. i bet it was nice having a base to go to when things got bad even tho i don't remember... i wish i had a base that i could just call and nothing could happen to me... but i guess that's wishful thinking... holidays aren't that special to me anymore... whenever i think about holidays i think... oh maybe i can work that day to get time and a half... or how i won't get to work out that day... yeah its fun being with my family but its the same stuff... sometimes i wonder how i'm going to spend my future holidays... if i move out of my house... i'm probably going to want to spend it with my family... but then again maybe not... maybe i'll be purposefully working who knows... i guess holidays are just excuses for people to make the day special when they should be making every day special... they should be making every day worth while... we should not need an excuse to celebrate... we should just celebrate... so the next time you feel like throwing a party or a bbq or whatever just do it don't wait for an excuse cuz there are too few holidays...

till then...beCelebratory...