sleepless...

its been harder and harder for me to get to sleep early.... is it because there are always a thousand thoughts in my head... a thousand thoughts with each thought having a thousand outcomes and paths that i could take... i need to stop thinking so much... but i can't just turn it off... its just always on... i close my eyes but my mind's awake... always wondering... always wishing... always thinking... i think too much... too much for my own good... i need to put an end to this... but how... i would have to think about it... at least school helps me focus my thoughts for brief moments... but no school now... no classes... no distractions... you just gotta get through the day... we all have our ups... and downs... some more downs than ups... but its getting through the day is what matters... and i guess since its the morning its the start of a new day... i need to surprise myself... i need to show my self up... i need to not think so much... it will rip me apart... so i need to keep being strong... i can do this... its nothing... or everything...

hope you're getting some sleep...

till then...beExtraordinary...